Growing up II

The only thing I hate about growing up is that
it forces us to see the ugly side of human :(

Sometimes I only hope I am ignorant enough to ignore what is going on.

I hate life :(

Sleeping Habits

Sleeping habits are all screwed up cause of assignments.

Thursday/Friday - Slept at 7am and woke up at 9am cause assignments datelines on friday. ONLY 2 HOURS OF SLEEP :0 :0 Never felt so tired since scouting LOL

Friday/Saturday - Slept at 9pm and woke up at 12pm cause fkn tired

Saturday/Sunday - Had a mini post-assignments celebration and went for dinner and mahjong LOL played til 6am (WTH) and slept at 7am :0

Saturday/Sunday: Woke up at 1pm for lunch and was still tired and had a nap from 5 til 9pm. Slept at 4 am again.

So my sleeping patterns all over the place and my skin is popping pimples like theres no tmr :(

DIET PLAN PART 182

ok, so I am inspired by lovely Sam and remembered that all of us international students faces the same problem – OVERBINGING.

Seriously, sometimes living alone without parents are hard. You have to buy, cook and wash so sometimes you will just rather do 3 meals at 1 go. Which through my experience, its not good at all. You tend to overfeed yourself cause theres so much food and you tend to gain that extra inch as well.

However, as days goes by your skill cooking skill increases significantly resulting increase in passion in cooking. So the more you cook –> the more you are happy and satisfied –> the more you eat.

Its not helping at all especially when I am stressed up as I loveee baking when I am in pressure. Not a good way to deal with stress I know. But I love how wonderful all this boring ingredients mixed together and turn out to be something this pretty and yummy. Not as good as Sam though, I never try baking something that will suck so much time outta me like kuih lapis or whatever fancy cake as a.) dont have the patience b.) no one eats it. The faith that most all my cakes share –> the bin. Cause I always can’t finish it and family/housemates just wants a piece D: Anyway I don’t really like eating it, I only like baking it cause it is a stress-getaway for me.

So theres more things into the equation. Stress –> Bake –> Happy –> Cook –> Happier –> EAT MORE –> Depressed from all the weight gain –> Bake

And yes people, that is what I call circle of life wtf

p/s: This post is the result of not eating dinner for 5 days wtf. Was too busy working and when I am finally free no one wants to cook and I can't be arsed to prepare my dinner as well. Anyway breaking the habit tonight and going out for dinner. Which is not a good thing I guess cause I am on a DIETTTT ROAR SAM WO MEN JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU

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WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!!!!!!!

JIA YOU AH WONG AI NGIIK!! GOGOGOGOGOGO

LOLOLOL just want to express my frustration :`)

Termites

..is what I am learning in uni now LOL how boring is that I wanted to post a picture of termites but decided its too ugly to be in here.

Anyway I have no idea why I no longer update anymore. Probably blogs are like a nice pair of shoe, where its life spam is only for 3 months, and if its really nice and pretty 2 years HAHA no idea what I am talking but I have been buying at least 2 pairs of shoes every week I think I bought more than 20 pairs in a month LOL can't blame me cause I was back in Msia and Thailand. So I have been:

#1 Studying. seriously I have never been so hardworking in my life. It felt like everyone in my course are so bloody smart cause only the top few can go into civil (which fyi I am studying civil LI MAY!) so I ended up being the bottom one at this cruel smartness-pyramid cause I am not that smart and I can only squeeze into it cause I had good groupmates last year which reminds me that my groupmates now are so bloody smart as well makes me so stress *phew* such long sentence. I am actually studying for a test tmr (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT WEEK 4 AND A TEST!!! WTH) so I am trying my best to attend all lectures(so far never missed any! *PROUD* except the first 3 days which I never attend any at all HAHA And because I wish/hope/want to graduate with first hons *berazam-azam* so I can only study as hard as possible now aih and I hate studying cause its so tiring especially math cause its calculus. Calculus is hate btw

#2 Dress up HAHAHA cause I am buying so many things I get to wear a new thing everyday and tearing price labels every time I do it. New hobby yo. So I tend to be a little more dressed up then my fellow classmates which makes me few a little weird oh well. I keep buying cheap stuff now I am a mojor cheapo but at least I get to wear new, pretty, (last-season) outfits hahaha

#3 Blogging in the other mysterious blog MUAHAHA meimei did you manage to find it? HAHAH aiya its not like I blog very often also la

#4 Working. Yes I am still keeping my job in that fish&chips even though the pay and working hour is crap but they are so so good to me <3>

#5 Thinking bout selling shoes online. Cause I found a website that sells amazing shoes at lovely prices. Its not really that cheap but its so pretty! so yeah thinking bout selling it but I am too lazy to actually execute my plan cause I will be dealing with money and everything will be so troublesome. aih but that extra cash will be good as well

#6 Hang out with friends lo especially now when we are already in second year we tend to be closer to each other and everyone is going to get their license soon so yay :D

anyway thats about it will write something here again after I am finish with termites haha

Like a dream

Sometimes I wonder,

how much secrets

and emotions

can a girl keep

until she eventually burst into flames.

p/s: Contradicting to my very emo post, I am now very happy actually. Currently in Malaysia with everyone I love and food I love more. But I guess its because it makes a person feel lonely at heart when there are so many people around, yet so few people that truly understands you. Anyway I will no longer post about my life (LOL its not like I ever talked about it) in this site, but in another page with my BFF because we are bringing our friendship into the next step <3>:D

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So I just wrote a blog post about Dyan and I felt so weird bout it so I took it down. LOL DYAN I WROTE ABOUT YOU 2 DAYS AGO!! YAY :D